now im second guessing myself. maybe i was wrong. i was so in love. then i got paranoid and started analyzing everything. sometimes things just dont match up. yeah i am justified in feeling and thinkin the way i do. but i cant help but want everything to be perfect. wanting to be with him and knowing i cant leave him. this sucks ass. i made myself stop feeling. and thats even worse then feeling awful. i just feel empty. we got into another arguement. i pretty much said i thought he was lying. that sucked. i beleive him now. maybe my perspective is just skewed because i cant be without him.