Well, looks like another year of spectating. *shrug* looks like anytime I dream or hope, this happens. Whatever...

~K'

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It seems as though anytime I make a leap of faith into the unknown I fall to my demise. True, part of me wants to go out and live life and take chances and just make things happen but...I'm just so afraid these days. Anytime I want to try and make things happen, I either convince myself that it won't happen and in most cases, it doesn't happen anyways. This fear is just...so overwhelming. I've pretty much convinced myself to stop trying since it'll usually end up in utter failure. Of course, living in a day and age where just about anywhere you look, there's another couple placed there to make your day even the more miserable. Life isn't something you spectate, but when you've failed as many times as I have, you can't help it. Heh, guess it doesn't help when you're so introverted, you're almost invisible, if you're so passive, conversations are always two or three minutes long, if you're so much less appealing compared to others in the group, you find yourself listening more than you find yourself talking. I guess it doesn't help either when you have friends who'd rather leave you for a- *sigh* nevermind. I'm done ranting.

It's hard to live life when you don't have people to live it with you.

~K'