WHy do I think that I am not worth anything to anyone? I know im worth a SHIT LOaD more than I give myself credit for.
I'm Nice, giving, caring, funny, smart, always up for a good time!
I've done alot i'm not proud of. Like becomming a bum, a drug addict and an alcoholic.
But I have conqured all of these things. I got a job, I quit drugs and alcohol! GOD i even lost 30 Kilo's.
But why do I continue to fuck things up for myself.
You know all I ever do is try to keep people happi! And it's impossible! I did the best I could for Heath and all he could do was repay me by leaving me for some phone slut rather than confront me!~ FUCK NOW I CANT TRUST GUYS! U just fuck me up! You know i'd love to grab a knife rite now and slide the tip down my wrist........................
Alright I have issues! I mean Toni never tries to come see me~! My friends at work they abandoned me and didnt give a fuck about leaving me behind~! You know I spent $600 on christmas presents this year and not one person (other than family) hs bothered to get me one! I lent a few bucks to people and didnt see a cent back! I gave some gals at work money for a bus and got no thanx no gratitude!
No one will notice if i die rite now anyway!
I try my best to be happi and stable for david, but im just a fucked up bitch!
IM tired of feeling sorri for myself anyways........