me and Joe had a fight *not about that, he doesnt know about that, i doubt hell ever know about that*

but i got upset... and i had to leave... so i went for a two hour walk up to work and then called Chris and got a ride from him...

he took me to this coffee house called Nords downtown and i got a hot chocolate... which was really good.

talked for a bit with him... then he took me home... assuring me i wouldnt die and i could do it... and he waited in his car until i went inside... which was nice of him...

yet he doesnt believe me that hes a great friend... and if he thinks that because me and him had sex... then he has to stop telling me im not a deserver of death for being the one that did the cheating.

i have to get dressed and go to the mall... i need a new journal... i wrote 16 pages through the day yesterday and now have to get a new one to start immediatly.

Joe just called, i told him Chris took me for a drive last night, and he says he isnt upset, but he got upset, and i can tell because he didnt say anything other then bye when he hung up... and barely left room for me to say it.

scum scum scum scum.

il get over it... soon hopefully... i think hanging out with Chris like that is something i need to do a few times in order to realize i can do that.

and i have to... in a weeks time hes going to have a girlfriend im sure, cuz Jamie admited she does like him, and hes liked her for quite some time.

i gotta go... laterz.