I have managed to lose almost everything since the last time I wrote in here.

First I lost my business that I have built from the ground up. I made sacrafices to make it work, such as my family. So now I have to live with hurting my family for nothing. That's hard for me to deal with.

My wife, bless her heart and determination, she tried to make us work but the years of neglect finally took their toll on her and she gave up. We decided to split up before we ended up hating each other, which I could never hate her, she is the love of my life. So here I sit lonely and depressed trying to figure out how to go on. We get along so good when we are apart. It's like when we are apart we are made for each other. I really adore this woman but I don't know how to show it, I just wish I could.

I would be a total mess if it wasn't for my kids. no matter what I know that they love me and want me in their life. I just wish they they didn't have to go trough this, they don't deserve it.

Well I'm sure if you are reading this you are bored by now so I'll end now. Till next time see ya.