O my goodness, things were starting to look up at least a bit, and now...... ugh! Lately life has been so emotional and it's soo frusterating. I found out my cousin has cancer and they don't think that she'll live through it this time. My cousin also has a mental retardation problem, so she doesn't really understand what's happening, or that she has a risk of dying, all that she knows is that she's really sick and needs treatment. Why do people have to do drugs or be baby beaters? If it weren't for them my cousin would be normal, and probably wouldn't have cancer even! O yea, then there's one of my closest friends, or at least she used to be, but anyways... she's to remain nameless, but she's been sick since birth and has gotten through and past so many difficulties in her life. Now, she's getting so sick that she might have to be flown away to a specialty hospital, and even worse than that, her health is slowly disentigrating, and she might not live very much longer. As if my emotions weren't already taking a toll on me, and now that has to be added on top of it all.... ugh. The only things I have to look forward to this week are getting to see and talk to a few of my friends, the chiropractor, new books, new magazines, and shopping. I'm hoping I can keep my mind off of everything before I break down crying in the middle of school. I think I'm gonna spend a lot of time during these next few weeks baking really sweet and fatty foods, and hopefuly talking my mom into playing tennis or raquetball with me. Okay... well I'm out for now!