i seriously doubt i should feel this way. but i cant help it. he makes my head spin. maybe its just the fact that a really attractive guy is showing some attention to me. i dont know. but he's all i can think about. well not ALL... but you know. he makes my head spin. i really like him. is that bad? i mean i only met him once but we've talked on line... i dont know. maybe thats not a good thing... its going to suck really bad when he finally realizes how much of a doofus i am and how he really shouldnt waste his pretty on me. seriously though. i mean. my gawd. does he realize how much of a freakin hottie he is? was it too dark friday night? did he not see what I look like?? that poor hottie... doesnt even know i look completely and utterly hideous in the light. poor poor chris... sigh. anyways  he wants me to spend the night. oh fuckin rockin is that? holy....shit...hot...guy....spend.....night...house..................FAINTS....

i think im too dramatic. and emotional. this is so gonna suck when it ends. :/

wish i could spill my guts to brice. i love tellin him everything. but this would tear him in two.