|A Place To Vent-To Just Let Go|
Well, I endured my birthday... It was , for the most part, a quiet day. Laynee's was Thursday, and it was a good day, too. I may have found me a place to live in Dallas for the time being. It is a small 2 bedroom. So small, in fact, that it looks like I am going to put the bunkbeds in one room, and make the other bedroom a small play room for the kids. My bedroom furniture won't fit in either bedroom, and for that reason alone, I almost turned the place down. But the more I thought about it, the more sense it made to me. I am going to put my bedroom furniture into the living room. I have to replace all of my living room furniture as is. Why haul all of that to Texas, when I have to replace it? PLUS, I don't have the money to replace it at this time. I probably won't have too much company, and if I do, they will just have to be acceptable to the fact that I don't have much right off the bat. It is only $400 a month. PLUS... I have a job interview Monday at 10 am. My mother got a job at a Real Estate Company as a Personal Assistant. The thing about her job is that people have never lasted because they think the boss to be nuts. She is EXTREME Christian. Every morning, they have a company meeting that after the buisiness matters are discussed, they have a Religous deiscussion, followed by prayer. Plus, they have to attend Bible Study together every week. (I could use a job like that... one that pays me to live a Christian life!!!)
Anyways... my mom was telling her boss about my situation, and her boss had my mom email her my resume. Apparently, she then forwarded it to EVERY buisiness contact she has in the Dallas Area. That was yesterday. Would you believe today I got a phone call from one of her contacts asking me for an interview Monday? Now, I just need to find a babysitter for Monday so that I can go to the interview.
I took a look at the Schools here, and I think what I am going to do is take another full-time job. I will go to night school 3 nights a week. By next year, I will be able to qualify for more scholarships and loans, and grants. As a returning student, I can also qualify for a "Daughter of Texas" Grant, which will pay almost all of my fees, so what is left from the pell grants and scholarships would pay my bills. I just have to find my papers to prove that I am a daughter of Texas! I knew there were a lot of reasons I had for missing living in Texas, other then my family...
So, move to Texas, take this small 2 bedroom, get a job. If I stay in this 2 bedroom for even 6 months, I will be able to put money away to replace the living room furniture and to get a bigger 3 bedroom house. Hell, if I could just hold off until February when I go back to court for child support, then I may be okay.
Ups and downs. I have a lot of friends that I have missed in Texas, anyways. Unfortunately, I have been neglecting a lot of those friendships ever since he died. I wanted to avoid eeryone, for fear of the pain returning. But now, I know that I need to lean on them more then ever. I have one firend, that I have had for 14 years, that has not yet turned her back on me, and 2 others that I still talk to once in a while. I hope it isn't too late to reconcile things. Lately, I have felt like if I had just had any friends to hjelp me get through all of this, I may have been just a little better... Well, wish me luck on getting a job!!!