I am just really shocked at this point!!!!  I was chillen' with my friend last night and we were just actin crazy as hell.  Then the phone rang!!!!!  I answered it and it was Josh on the other end!  Josh is one of the most wonderful people in the world.  A TRUE SOUTHERN GENTLEMAN!!!!  He's the total package, he's cute, hardworking, funny, sweet and very gentleman like!!!  He's great! And my family would just love him, b/c he's just like they are.  Anyways, he told me that he would like to date me!  I mean I would love to be his GF b/c I know he would treat me right and be there for me.  BUT... there is a small thing, called Victor that makes me second guess it!  I mean, maybe this is my curve ball.  Maybe this is my sign letting me know that Victor isn't necessarily  the one for me.  Maybe, but I am not sure.  And, another thing Josh used to date my younger cousin.  I mean that might make for an akward situation if he and I do get together and still are together when my dad's family begins to talk to me again.  But then again I can't honestly say that that would bother me!  I mean she was only 16 when they dated so...  I don't know I think that I am trying to come up with every excuse in the world not to see where this could go, b/c I am afraid of it!!  I am afraid that it might actually work out and that Victor might also wanna be with me!  I have always had trouble finding one guy who is interested in me and now I have two and I am equally interested in both of them!!!!  I just don't know what to do!!!  AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!