I am just really shocked at this point!!!! I was chillen' with my friend last night and we were just actin crazy as hell. Then the phone rang!!!!! I answered it and it was Josh on the other end! Josh is one of the most wonderful people in the world. A TRUE SOUTHERN GENTLEMAN!!!! He's the total package, he's cute, hardworking, funny, sweet and very gentleman like!!! He's great! And my family would just love him, b/c he's just like they are. Anyways, he told me that he would like to date me! I mean I would love to be his GF b/c I know he would treat me right and be there for me. BUT... there is a small thing, called Victor that makes me second guess it! I mean, maybe this is my curve ball. Maybe this is my sign letting me know that Victor isn't necessarily the one for me. Maybe, but I am not sure. And, another thing Josh used to date my younger cousin. I mean that might make for an akward situation if he and I do get together and still are together when my dad's family begins to talk to me again. But then again I can't honestly say that that would bother me! I mean she was only 16 when they dated so... I don't know I think that I am trying to come up with every excuse in the world not to see where this could go, b/c I am afraid of it!! I am afraid that it might actually work out and that Victor might also wanna be with me! I have always had trouble finding one guy who is interested in me and now I have two and I am equally interested in both of them!!!! I just don't know what to do!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!