Ya know what???  The most wonderful person in the world just walked out my door and I am so scared that he might never come back again!  I mean, Josh and I really have some strong connection that I just can't ignore.  I feel so drawn to him.  After about a year of phone and internet conversations I finally got to hug him...  I got to see his smile...  I got to feel his heartbeat...  He is very much real and very much alive.  I just didn't believe he could be so wonderful in person.  I mean I did, but it is still all so surreal to me at this point.  I believe that i might be completly "twitterpatted" at this point.  I just hope that the first time I saw him will not be my last time.  His laugh is just amazing.  His smile makes my heart melt and his arms make me feel so safe and warm.  UUUUUGGGGHHHH!!!!!!!!!