So first of all,I had to delete some people of my favs,sorry if ur one of them,but I just dont got time to read everybody no more,and some people post million pointless entries a day,I dont got time for that,but yea sorry again.

Anyways.
Halloween was aight,I chilled wit Tim for a while after school it was real cute.I gave him this cute ass note on Monday,it was really sweet and then he gave me a Teddy Bear and like two notes on Tuesday,it was real cute.
We didnt have school on Wednesday and I didnt go to school for the rest of the week...I really didnt feel like it and I told my mom I really dont feel good.
And then Tim came the borh days so yeaahh..
NO nothing happend,even tho I planned on it but...Bot of the days were whack..
Thursday..We watched a movie,then we was bout to do,even tho I REALLY didnt feel like it,I wasnt horny AT ALL.
And well for me thats real weird but I dunno.I was gonna do it anyway..But...His bitchass forgot the damn condoms UGH...We was just quiet for a good minute,I was real bitchy but by the end it was ok.It felt soo different tho,I didnt feel close to him..I duuno.Just weird.
Then yesterday I thought it was gonna be better,he came we just cuddled and watched a movie,after that we went and just layed in my bed and then we was bout to do it again,h started looking for his wallet and HE FUCKIN LOST THE FUCKING WALLET.Lol..Dumbass.But thats not all,I forgot what was it but I was just bitching at him the whole damn time and then I was crying ugh it was crazy.And when he saw Im crying he was soo lost he was like "Whats wrong" and I was siting on the floor and he was just in ma bed looking at me I was thinkin damn h\can u at least hug me or some shit but anywayz...Then we was about to leave,cuz I had to go to ma brothers school,and while I was getting dressed he was talking to Atif the whole damn time I was sooo mad.Atif was telling him that somebody was saying some shit about Tim but the way Tim was talking he made it seem like they was talking bout me,and then I burst into tears again.Lol,I was soo emotional yesterday.But by the end we was good.Kinda.
Then he called last night and I was kinda mad cuz it was later then he said he will...So in the beggining I was just quiet and then I started crying again!!!I kno damn..
BUT then we stayed on the phone till 5am..So we're really good now..Its back to normal.

Hmm what else...I dunno,I just feel like being away from everybody.Especially females they fucking blow me...I dunno but each and every day I realise how fucking fake n hating can bitches get.
Me and Karen...We dont talk like we use to...We use to be so soo close..We still tell each other everything but still.Well not really everything sometime I dont feel like telling her all my shit..
So yeah,I dunno maybe it isnt right,I kinda abonded my friends for Tim..But its just..I dunno hes ma boy n ma bestfriend and everything...Ima be with him for a while.Trust me on that one..

OH SHIT!Demetry just called.He called yesterday too,but Tim was here and by the time I was gonna pick up he hung up...And then I called him back but he aint pick up...I wanted to make Tim jelous cuz he was gettin on ma nerves lol..
Damn he was like "U shud leave ur boyfriend and come back to me" and all this shit.That boy is just so fine!Mmmm..I miss him so much..
But yeah,I'll stick with Tim...
Oh and he told me how people be telling him I go with Tim just to make him jelous I was like wtf...Prolly Keith or Jeff...

What else...Well thats it for now I guess..I dont got school on Tuesday either...
I think Ill be updating less often from now...I dunno.

Ima really try and catch up with everybody this weekend.
Much Love
Alexandra