hey well at the moment my life is okish, its better then it has been in recent months

my ex-stepdad has stopped hassling me which is good and also im getting on alot better with my mum, my mums second cousin is staying with us at the moment and its ok, its just kinda strange having a guy in the house who is actually a nice guy and not a violent asshole like my ex-stepdad dont get me wrong its nice having him here cause he is getting me more into photography and stuff which is awesome and he has also been treating me like im an adult and not some stupid lil kid which i respect and like,

i just wish he would make up his mind as to what he and my mum are doing u know does he wanna be with my mum or not, i dunno its just confusing really,

anyways back to me, my life is ok im a lil stressed with college and stuff and but i think ill be ok and i wont stress too much about it all, i dont think i wanna have a nervous break down at the age of 19 lol, but i think i will be ok and i wont get too stressed out i hope, also my love life isn't going great... me and N have split got back together and split and now i dnt know where we are if were together or not and its kinda confusing and i just wish i knew where i stood with him because i know how i feel about him, i know i love him and i just wish i knew if he felt as deeply for me as i felt for him but i dont know if he does or not i just really do wish i knew but i dont unfortunately

now as for Leicester, i have made a decision i am going to move to up there to live with my friend L and im gonna start my life again or begin living if u will but yh im gonna do that.

my counciling is going ok and im not too worried about it i like telling my counciler things cause i knwo she wont judge me and she is just there to listen and offer her oppinion and advise and how she sees the situation im in and what she would be like or she advises how i could look at something differently which is awesome, and i like the fact i can tell her anything and she wont judge me

so yh thats me up to now and i just wanna add that i wouldnt be where i am now if it wasnt for my mum and my friends, cause with out them i am nothing and i love them all dearly xxx

im off now so ill write soon bye bye, Love Jade x