|~Trying To Hold On~|
~So sad note of the day... This is my last week of summer vacation... I love summer time. And this year is the first year that I actually do not want to go back to school. Maybe its because this is my last year, or maybe its because most of my friends have already graduated, or maybe I'm just done with school. I would bet that its a mixture of all the above. I'm just ready to start my life outside of school. I've been in school since I was 4... Isn't 18 years enough?? I love that it is pretty much required now that students stay in school that long to even have a shot at a decent job. And just think that in a few years, a graduate degree will probably turn into the undergraduate degree so students will have to go even longer! Thank God that I am doing my MBA and undergraduates together. I so wouldn't go back for another 2 years to finish it. I'm already so done with school and I have a full year left!
~On a lighter note. I have a phone interview tomorrow morning for a data entry/human resource internship. I'm really excited for it and also very very nervous. I've never done a phone interview before and I think i'm much more appealing in person. I've also attended way too many rock concerts so my hearing isn't what it used to be... I will be praying hard core about this tonight and anyone else who would like to pray for me feel free. I will need all the prayers that you can offer!! The other factor making me rather nervous about this interview is the fact that I need this internship. Without an HR internship on my resume the chances of me actually getting an HR position when I graduate are less than zero percent chance. So without this I will either have to keep searching (which trust me there aren't a lot of HR internships out there, heck there aren't a lot of internships out there period), or I will have to get a job in one of my other majors, which wouldn't be the worst thing, I just want to have a job that I love and I do love HR...
~On an unsure note... I went on a date last week. This guy that I work with has been hitting on me pretty much since I started in May at this job... and we went out once back in May but things kinda didn't happen... and lately he's been really hitting on me at work and saying all these cute things and that kind of stuff, but he hasn't asked me out again. So I took measures into my own hands and asked him if he wanted to hang out last week. So he ended up picking me up from work one night and we went to a couple of local bars which was fine. We had great conversations, and a really nice time. But there is just one problem... He's way more into me than I am into him. He's a really sweet guy or at least he appears to be, and he's obviously into me, I just don't get that heart skipping beats, I can't stop thinking about him feeling. And so that makes me worried. I don't want to hurt him by leading him on, but I also don't want to pass him up if maybe he is the one? You never know. So I don't know what to do. This is such a new feeling for me. The last time I had a guy like me was like 5 years ago... And I don't really know how to handle this kind of situation... I guess the good thing is he hasn't tried to text me since or ask me to do anything else with him. So maybe he's not into me as much as I think. I really don't know. He could be just waiting for me to make the moves, but I'm old fashioned that way. I want the guy to seek me out and put effort into wanting to see/talk to me. The last time I was trying to get with a guy I did all the "chasing" and it was all worthless. So I don't want to waste my time if he's not serious. I don't have time to chase a guy anyways. So yeah... That's where I'm at there...
~On a bitchier note... Bridal shower number 2 was yesterday for my sister-in-law-to-be that I don't really like. It was more fun than bridal shower number 1 because it was my side of the family so I got to see a bunch of my cousins that I don't see all that often, and I actually had most of the say in how things went. Not like the last one where we were at a tea party (I don't like tea) with her side of the family (I didn't know anyone)... So needless to say much much better the second time around. But the thing that sucked, is that one of my friends (She thinks she knows everything) started pretty much taking cuts at me about stuff... mainly that I don't like my brothers fiance, which she was sitting there and my parents. I was so pissed. Hello we don't even hang out that much cuz you say you work too much and you are all about being with your husband 24/7 so that doesn't leave much time for us to actually hang out. Also I've changed this summer. I know I've changed and I like the newish me. I mean I'm still the old me just way more confident and laid back than I used to be about certain things. And she hasn't seen that side of me and I'm not going to let her. I also am not going to put up with her shit anymore. I don't deserve it. I demand to be treated with more respect than that. All people deserve to be treated with more respect than that. So I just don't understand why she did that. I don't even want to be friends with her anymore... So irritating...
~On a closing note... I got to chat the last two days with a special friend... That was nice... Totally relaxing and just what I needed after a long few weeks!! Plus he recognized my awesomeness and lets me be a little cocky! ;) how can you go wrong with a conversation like that!!