i know it seems silly to have worried like i did, but that is just the kind of person that i am. that is so somehting i wouldnt normally do, so of course all that i can do is think of everything that could have possible gone bad. but now im cool. i cant even imagine how moody i have been toward others these past few days. but hopefully everyone understands. my uncle showed up on my mothers door step last night. he tried to kill himself. again. i guess he stayed there last night and hopefully will for a while. he needs to get away from his wife. if thats what you want to call her. she ruined his life. he quit his job and all he can talk about is how he just wanted the pain to end. what do you say to soemthing like that. and its not even me who is there to try and talk to him, or console him. its my mom. i cant even imagine what she is feeling either. thats her brother. i mean when i went home for the weddding he was starting to get depresssed and everything and i talked to him and so did everyone in the family, telling himt o leave her and that he could stay with any one of our families. but he didnt listen. went back to her. now im scared. u2 concert is on monday. im pretty pumped about that. however, i made the mistake of making a certain kind of appt on monday also. an appt i have never had before and should have considering i am 21 years old and a female. so hopefully that doesnt ruin my day. so we decided to go out for abbys going away on saturday instead. which is good cuz that is when it was planned for anyways, so no one really has any conflicts. going uptown. hot dog! put on your sunday best. got all my stocking stuffer gifts done yesterdat! thats fun. just gotta start making some money so i can get the rest of the stuff done and bought. i like christmas shopping though. some people think its a hassle. but im a fan. have to work tonight. theres a suprise. hopefully ill make some money. over and out nicki