Dear Diary,
Ok here it goes ,just to let you all Know i cant spell very well luckly fo spell checker.I come from a tipical broken home .Vilonce fisical mental abuse.My brothers and i were taken away from our mother she did not really notice i guess aslong as she had her DRUGS and a BOYFRIENDshe was happy.I am greatfull i was taken away and put in a group home it proubly saved my life.o ya still have proublems that is why i started this diary when i was in counceling they always said not to keep it in so i think this will be theraputic .the proublem i have right now is my weight i think every thing is ok I act like every thing is ok but it isn't i dont work right now but i allways did when i am at work everyone wants to hang with me .were ever i go what ever i do people want to be my friend (i make friends easly)i just ...i am not ok with myself..i need help but cant tell my friends becouse they think i am so in control i mean i can talk to them but they just dont get it ....i way 260lbs i am5"2 i know ..i am fat get of your ass and work out RIGHT i try...i make excuses...i wake up at around 2:00pm just before the kids get home so i can make the illusion i have been up all day ....it is sad...BUT that is all going to change starting today i am going to write out my goals i am going to stick to it ..i am very proud of myself for i Quit smoking after smoking since i was 12 years old today i am 29 i did it for my health if i can go cold turky on that ..i ts been 1 month 2 weeks 4days since(of course i did not smoke while preg.)i had a smoke    O'ya OK so here is my goals
1.keep up not smoking
2.(baby steps)lose10 lbs in two weeks or less
a. walk around the block 4x daily
b.drink 10 glasses of water 
c.eat breakfast ,fruit,veg,and grains 
3.stop sitting on ass i front of t.v.& p.c
a.limit time on both
4.go to bed the latest 12:00a.m

ok thats it i will be checking in every day i can do this