Ok, so when you lose something you usually come up with the symptons of pain, Frustration, anger, discontenment. Right?? Of course those things are natural. But for me right now. I am none of those. I am just.... here... I know that I can wait just one more year for the man that I love. I know that he can do the same for me.

We have made a promise, a promise full of love, faith, and understanding. Nothing can stand in the way of love, and nothing will EVER take that away. It's like telling a person to stop living, they can't and they won't. Today I feel as if, my life has been taken from me. but, I have taken it back. there are so many different feelings in my life today. The feeling of Confusion, and misunderstanding. I don't know why I feel as if I don't understand, I should, I should rejoice that He is becoming a better person. I think that with out seeing each other for a year, that is... a good thing??? They always say, Absence makes the heart grow fonder. Right??! mayb well see about that.