this whole weight issue thing has been ridiculous.... really i know it has.  i really should not hurt my body by throwing up, if then i eat something after that, and just let it sit there...there really is no point.... my body is perfectly fine for right now! i know it is not perfect, but im the ideal weight for my height.  when i get back to school, ill just work out like crazy and tone my body.... that is really all i need to do any way.  And not eating, or throwing up, really is not going to do that.  maybe ill also start eating healthier....i did at school, its just here, i had this crazzy idea that i was nto suppose to eat at all, so i only wanted junky food and would binge on that... healthy, i need to eat healthy not to lose weight, but so i can be healthy.  there is definetley a difference... and now i am beggining to wonder how long this train of thought is going to last?  till i go shopping again, look in the mirror? realize i dont like my image again?  screw the idea looking perfect by pete's birthday.  he likes me the way i am any way!! yeah, thats all i have to say as of this moment.  Pete comes to visit tomorrow- yay.  man i think forgetting about this weight thing is harder than it seems, cuz after i wrote pete comes tomorrow i thought, "man i wish i wasnt so disgusting" ahh what is wrong with me!! get over it Kara!!!!!