|New Chapter in My Life|
There is no happy ending to this love story. We spend the perfect New Years together and everything was just going so well. I spend 2 days with his family and stayed over his brothers house.
So funny how things can just crash and burn in a moment. Well that is exactly what happened. It started out with him not introducing me as his girlfriend and saying straight out that I am not and that he never has one. Which didn't bother me so much at the moment, but made me cry later. Then he had the nerve to joke around about how since he never gives me any sex I can always go and sleep with someone else. To which I replied that I am not a slut, and he jokingly pointed out that he could have slept with me on our first date so he must be that good (keeping in mind that we know each other for 5 years.. that was an asshole thing to say).
Then he broke his promise of going for a ride in his car and hooking up, because he was too tired.... Too tired??? what??? you are 26 yrs old... and you are a male.. how could you ever say no to sex???? So that resulted in me slamming two car doors and peeling out in my jeep. I have a temper... I also yelled at him at the bar... but lets not even mention that.
So I get home cry for two hours and text message him saying that his joke was fucked up and that I don't think he cares for me all that much. The next day i get a text message saying that he can't call me that day because he is trying to figure out what he wants out of life and were he sees us going and he needs time to sort ish out. So fine I gave him his time.. but the next day I texted him saying just get it over with and say that we are done. So he texted me saying that he cares for me more then I know, but he keeps hurting me with all his empty promises to see me because he is always tired and working, and he cant live with the guilt and it's unfair to me. And are you ready for this... he still wants to be friends!
So my response to that was... "It's funny that you say you don't have the time to put in the effort yet you have me meet your parents, pushed me to introduce you to mine, and completely led me on. Hope you realize what you have done, because I broke up with my almost to be fiance for you and you can't put in the effort. You crushed my heart, but thats ok because i knew it would happen, but you know what... YOU DONT DESERVE ME." And he responded that I was completely correct.
So I cried like a crazy woman in the bathroom at work... but then 2 hrs later I got over it. I texted him saying that it's funny that he turned out to be my rebound after all (something that he was always afraid off), and that my heart is done breaking now so he doesn't have to feel bad about anything, and that I will be friends with him because he is good people.
I look at it this way... he was a very good rebound because he treated me very well, and I had someone there to get me through the holidays. We were friends for a long time... so we gave it a shot and if it didn't work out what can we do. He was definitely hurting me with his broken promises but I would keep suffering because that's what I do.. I suffer for love... so I am actually thankfull that he spared me... i feel as if a weight have lifted off my shoulders, because I no longer have to wait around for him and constantly think about him.
So the New Year starts with a new chapter.. which is not a bad thing.. esp since last year went out with a bang :P Watch out boys I'm ready to play the field for a while.