so, jon left for west point 47 days ago and now i'm starting to question if staying with him was such a good idea. none of my friends seem to think that we're going to stay together, i haven't heard from him in over 3 weeks and it's just too emotional to hang onto something like this not really knowing if the same feeling is being returned. i know that jon loves me but i'm not sure how much anymore. he left for west point a month and a half ago. who knows, he might have found another girl that he likes more than me. maybe he's just busy and doesn't have much time to write. maybe he lost my address...which isn't hard to believe. i'm suprised that kid hasn't lost his head yet. but yeah. i'm not really sure what to think anymore.
i'm madly in the love with him and i know that at one point (at least) he was madly in love with me. and it's not helping that my friends are telling me that the army changes people and that i might get up there tomorrow and find out that he really isn't interested in me anymore. idk.
i'm just gonna go up and hope for the best i guess.
wish me luck!

-Rachel