Today is the day that i am having deja vu all over again. well maybe not technically, but i am repeating the same mistakes. this is not good. i am also mispelling words and writing run on sentences. this from a girl who wishes to be a writer someday. ya a starving one. so the navy was brought up again. yes my boyfriend wishes to go into the navy. and i am scared shitless. he thinks its all going to be a peice of cake, and they're going to heat the boats he'll go on. what a freaken joke. the recruitor is a great salesman. and this is the second b/f i have had who liked the navy.maybe this is my fate. i am bound to be with a sailor. well this shall be interesting. anyways so... he's been hinting now and then that he doesnt want to break up. such as him coming to my prom senior year and wearing his uniform. bringing a picture of us for when he's there. and that made me all happy. but then today, i had to ask about housing, and how long he'd be in the service. 6 years he said. possibly. and here comes my mistake. when i get out of college i can come live with you. he didn't have a bad reaction. but doesn't mean he wasn't thinking oh no. this was the problem with the other guy. i was obsessed with plans for the future. and they got in the way of present day. and that led to a downfall. so, since i don't want that to happen again, i am going to lay off the furture. it doesn't matter. right now is what matters. and i am in love. again. and he wants to stay with me.