So I talked to Courtney tonight, for the first time since last Saturday, and I was just..really bummed. I mean, we talked a little about like..stuff going on between us, but she...didn't give me what I wanted. I told her, I'm the kinda person that needs closure...and I am. I just...we liked eachother, and we were like..having a good time and she'd told my friend that she really liked me, and she acted like she did, so I thought she did, but then like, she just...moved away without even calling and telling me, or anything, and I hadn't talked to her since she moved, but tonight, I did, and I guess I was kinda looking for "I really did like you, but I just hadda get outta here"...but instead, I got "I just hadda get out of that place, I hated everything about it, don't worry, you'll get over it (it being her), don't waste your time on anything (anything being her)...yeah maybe we could hang out sometime when you're up this way..I gotta go though, I'll call yuh sometime." It just...I'm the kinda person that like...ugh, I just have to know how someone feels, even if it's bad..I have to know. I didn't come out and ask her because I was just..asking her too many questions, and I felt like I was being like..annoying or something. But I mean, I've just been thinking...she told me before we even kissed that she was a lip whore, I dunnoe if she was kidding or not, but like, i can't help but keep thinking..."did she actually like me, and like kissing me, or did she just do it because I was there at the moment?" I just wish she actually HAD some sort of feeling for me, but I just dunnoe. So, I'm just..left thinking about it. I think the reason I'm so like...attatched to her is because she was my first girl...I didn't even know I liked girls when I met her, I dunnoe if I like girls, I just know I liked her. So I guess i just thought it would go somewhere...that's all.