Courtney called me today as I was leaving for work. We talked for about four minutes and then some like guy started talking and the phone hung up..it was cell phone interference. But I didn't call her back, I didn't have time. But when I answered the unfamiliar call not knowing who it'd be, and I heard her voice, I got the biggest smile on my face. I'm going crazy, not knowing what to do. I'm used to seeing her everyday, or close to it. Now, I talk to her on the computer, sometimes, and today was the first time I'd actually heard her voice since last Saturday. I just..hate it. she said some friends from down here were going up there to see her and I just wished it was me so bad. I know I'd never go up there without Jessica though and like that's going to happen...I just wish I could see her so I could look into her eyes one more time. I miss just looking at her. When we used to hang out, she was always telling me these stories about herself, and I'd just sit there, staring, studying her...sweeping the hair out of her face, watching it fall right back where it was, the way she figited when she told stories about things, her saying "I'm just kidding" after almost everything she said, really emphasizing that "g" as if she were saying "kiddinguh"...man I loved it. I feel so sad inside. I just want to kiss her lips...that was my favorite part about hanging out...I loved kissing her. I miss her so much...