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i need advice i would not read this if you arnt concerend with simple afairs i just need peoples opinions on this stuff. I am sitting here thinking that i must be so lame to put this stuff on the internet. but i think if i put it on paper it will help me out. see my problem is that i am a teenager. as if thats not hard enough i just lost the bes part of my life, my boyfriend christopher. i knoe this dosent sound like a huge deal and i know it happends all the time but no matter how i try i cannot forget it. i have been dateing this boy for 2 years and it has been the best 2 years of my life. we did lots of thigs together and were so in love. he was my first and i his so matbe that is why this is so hard for me. Anyway he broke up with me shortly after christmas. he said he just did not like me amymore. but he did not want to tell me because he said that he did not want to break my heart. 3 days after that he gets a new girlfriend. and they start doing the things that me and him waited for. everyonr tells me i should stop calling and then he will miss me and want me back but i caint.it is too hard. me and him talk everynight still more than he and his gf do. also we have been doing things first it was phone sex and we both felt bad afterward. i tried to stop it but it happend anyway. well it happend agin the next day and the day after that. we were a very sexual couple, but that wasent all we were about. anyway it got to were we did not regret it and he want tell his girlfriend, he said it wasent cheating because we live about 30mins apart. well this past sunday we did more, he caint say it was not cheating, we touched each other and had oral sex. he did not appear to feel bad about and he even planned for us to do it agin cuz he said he "owed me" how should i react to this? i dont feel that bad, i do a little because i am promoting his cheating. but i would do anything for him if it would win him back. i want him to be in my life more than i want to even have one.on monday when i called him we did not do anything. he acted a little different, he said he did not feel good and then he told me that he was gonna start being good because he really likes her and does not want to mess it up. so after he repays me that is it he was gonna be good. he had fucked up enough so i told him that i understood and he did not have to repay me, he was like, well i do owe you and i relized that i have no idea what is going on and me just makeing myself his little sex doll isent helping my chances. we were supposed to get together this weekend si he could repay me but i dont think i should i think i should just not call anymore and see what happends. he says he shouldent do this stuff with me, but the says he dosent want to stop. what does this mean, is he just useing me. he told me i was better than she was so is that why he is keeping me around? please feel free to tell me your opinion i am always open to advice and dieing to know what people who are completly unbiased think.
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