im so tierd but so bored i been up for a long time now i didnt get home till 3 am i was at Kevins chillin god i dont know why i love hime so much its weird who thought i would actually find a nice guy well i think we both need each other for modivation b4 i came along he had no job and practicly no life im trying to help him and he helps me a lot more than i think he knows maybe he will realize it.

anyways tomorrow i go to the docs to find out if im prego im hoping not theres still so many things in my life i need to do gotta make it big then ill think about a family even tho i know that kevin would be happy i wouldnt at this time im only 19 and im not ready of corse i should have thought about that hu duh where was my brain at oh duh i was smokin and i was horny wtf no excuses i wanted to make him happy too but i got to do whats best for me.

after i find out if im not im headed strait to the gym i gained some mad weight in the last 2 months i gotta stopt that i miss my old body can you say jlo lol plus i love lookin good wear nice clothes and looking good in them oh well if i am im gonna have to deal and i dont know how im gonna tell my parents thats would suck I know what they would say they would say im stupid and probly kick me out again oh well and you know what i need a new job i been lookin but i need more modivation to actually be agressive about it ahhhhhhh im gonna get my life together some how well i hope you gotta hit rock bottom b4 you get to the top right well thats what i tell myself

well good night im gonna go chat to ppl peace