Bleh loads of stuff hs happened. Me and Jess had a little argument on wednesday but then everything was fine. Then I started crying in Science on Thursday and she stormed out of the classroom. The thing is I don't get why she stormed out cause the stuff I was upset about had nothing to dow tih her really and it wasn't said to upset her.

But anyway that night I tried talking to her and she said she was feeling crap and stuff. I kept asking her why she felt like crap and she just kept going "you should know".

Last night I tried talking to her again and she still wouldn't talk to me. Well, she said some. But it's like she won't listen to me! She was also saying that I can't expect her to act like nothing's happened but she's being fine with Kati and everyone it's just with me. Whenever I say something she dosen't like or that she can't get a reply too she just signs off or something! And it's so annoying cause now she dosen't even want to be my friend anymore cause she thinks she'll be better off without me or something. Thanks, Jess. It's like she won't even work things out with me, she just decided that by herself. It just hurts cause you know, me and her have been best friends for like 4 years and then something happens and zap it's all taken away from me. I still don't know why she's angry at me cause she won't TALK TO ME ABOUT IT!!!! Also, she said she got annoyed when I was saying that I felt left out cause her and Sophie were going out all the time but then me and sian used to go out like everyday. Yeah, well SHE FELT LEFT OUT. She also took it so far that she didn't talk to me for like half of Science just cause she thought me and Sian were best friends now or something.

But anyways I'll get over it I suppose. Maybe I'll be better off without her cause the past few months she's been putting me down by always getting really depressed and then never telling me about it but then she'll go and tell Sophie or someone. She dosen't tell me ANYTHING anymore. Plus she's the one always bragging about her weight and always trying to be better than me at everything. Always trying to be the 'winner' of something.

I doubt this will last very long. I know this was her decision and stuff but she never listened to my side of the story. If maybe she had listened to me then and she still didn't like me maybe then I would have believed this would last a long time. Like the longest fall out me and her have ever had was like.....a week. And all the time me and her start talking and then we become best friends again or like last year when we fell out at the end of school she emailed me when I was in America saying how sorry she was. Well, even if things don't get back to normal I suppose I'll just get used to stuff. Sort of like when me and Danielle fell out. Or when me and Sian just like...drifted apart back in yr5 and 6. Suppose I have other friends.

Bleh I'm not doing anything today well I might go with Nick to Ms Baileys just to be with him. Then tomorrow I'm going out with Sian, woo!