And that's cool, cuz I really just want to remember things.

Anyways.

I need, to look at things differently. I have been raised and I have grown, under assumptions that, I need to be closer to something that Is beyond the realm of my conciousness, some great cosmic justice or power. Not because of my undying faith in it, but because I wanted some semblance of happiness. So I allowed myself to forget about all my wants, and my desires, to be chaste and perfect and just. And then I forgot about my needs. Because I have found, that needs are only wants that we have allowed ourselves to justify. So now that I don't really care or know what I need anymore, I have come to ask myself; What do I want?

Do I want to continue drifting not so much in the social sense but through my life without care to what I need and want. Or to make it that it's not even considered wrong in so many wayst to "drift" as they say.

Why are we all tied down to one another. Why do I feel desire to be tied to something greater, instead of making myself greater. Why do I forget what is important to appease someone else's mood.

Indiscriminately, unwarranted, bullshit. This is all my life seems to be now unless I decide, what it is I wan; Fuck all of the religion, all of the hope and desire, for some remedy and healing through repititous hoohah! I will decide soon what I desire and take it , because no one listens to the crys of the planet, and of the dead.

I am already a zombie, now it's time to one up all of the other somnambulists.