I'm sure that your realize that some of this poetry is not any good but I like to keep it to reflect on how my mind has evolved over the years, so if you need to snicker it's ok but I don't need to hear it because I'm past that allready.
Anyways enjoy you hosers.
Time ticks, winding in my skull.
Tears rush down my cheeks,
I eat your soul till I'm full.
This life so bleak,
And I so meak.
Ulcers eat, churning insides.
A broken path, I may never find.
The door revolves,
The pain absolved.
Beaten me, bruised me, drove to the ground.
Draging me, throwing me, tossed all around.
Head aches, ears bleed, Why are you screaming?
Vomiting, shaking, Why am I bleeding?
The bed soaked with tears.
Covers keep out the fear.
But when the sheets are grown cold so is my heart.
I gave you my world and you ripped it apart.
Time fades, winding trough my voice.
Tears gush out my eyes,
I'm so sick of chewing on souls.
To find my own,
The music fades, so little choice.
Of what comes next,
Disgust or rejoice
I try to be bold.
Bearing my soul,
But it all gets old.
When I bleed inside, I sing out.
When I cry inside, I shut down.
When I rage inside, I speak out.
When I feel inside, I fall down.
Poem7: Infidelity 5/13/2002
A condundrum occurs in the night
Tongues intertwined twinge
Another question of wrong and right
The end result that of a binge
Sin stains my lips and finger tips
My stomach turns as I think of it
Can I blame the green
Maybe blame my greed
Characterization of humanity
Picturesque motif of insanity
A conundrum occurs in the night
Is my thirst yet satisfied
Can I look her in the eye
Tell her I love her
Looking from above her
Stroking her face
Time out of place
And I regret that I would do it with another
I tell my tale to you my brother
A conundrum in life we call...
Milestone Poem3: Graduation 5/18/2002
I stand in the rain, unwelcome in my own home.
I cry once again, can't bear to go home.
I've sinned again, I've hurt my friends.
Betrayed her trust, for evil ends.
Gained nothing, lost it all.
Brace again, for one last fall.
And I stand on the outside.
I look in the pane and see my shame.
And as I'm torn inside.
I look through my pane and see your ashamed of me.
Fogetting my responibilities.
Foretting everything told to me.
Forgetting my duties.
Forget everything in a cloud of smoke.
But I can't put off my life any longer
Can't forget who I am.
Must find the strength to become stronger.
Forget about who I was.
I can't put off love any longer.
My spirit burns inside in pain.
Weakness inside burns even stronger.
But your love alleviates my pain.
And I fucked up, I'm in wrong.
How'd I deny it for so long.
I know you worried everyday.
When I was off losing my way.
Forgot about Father.
Forgot of my Daughter.
Forgot about all that mattered to me.
Forgot about everyone I see Now
Before me, crying as my Eulogy is read.
Forgot about the love I felt inside her arms.
And I cry again, I've lost my friends.
The wrong people corrupt me,
And I forget everyone I once knew.
Time, has come again. Test of my will
Time, has come my dearest friends.
Testing my soul's constitution.
Will she say yes, will she say no?
Will I be alone, will I ever know?
If anyone cares for me at all.
If anyone sees me taking the fall.
This time tommorow will I be ok.
Will I be estatic or depressed.
This time tommorow will I be alive.
Or will I be consumed by feeling repressed.
My spirit is empty with out love.
But was it ever really full.
I search for the puzzle peices.
To fill in the insatiable hole.
But does it matter at all.
Should I strive for I can't have.
I wonder has life any meaning at all.
When I can't tell you I love you.
insert intrumental here*
Tooooooooooo muuuuuuuuuccccccch paaaaaaain to bear.
Tooooooooooo muuuuch missing there.
Tooooooooooo muuuuuuuuuccccccch left unsaid.
Toooooomorrow I'll be dead.
Inside I cry.
The rate at which accelerates.
I ache for you.
But is it really love I feel? Or am I just selfish.
Can my sins become worse again? Am I evil.
No matter the outcome, I need reasuurance.
No matter what comes tommorow.
Just awnser the phone when I call.