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so i have decided that i am not going to write these entries on a daily basis....since i havent seen i started a diary. my life is just so compounded with so much stuff to do, i just dont have time to write. except when there is something i have to reflect upon or vent about. these past couple of weeks have been very busy and very sick. its been stressful with the thoughts of finding a job, something thats going to make me lots of money as well as finding a place to live. these two things must be found by June, if not im going to be one poor girl without a home. as much as i cant wait to graduate from this "lovely" institution, i want to be in school longer. or do i just want life to be easy and everything fall in my lap? i think with all this stress that i am under, its the number one reason why i got sick with the flu. and nosirwebob was it a 24 hour thingy....hows about 3 days of puking and feeling just plain icky. i hate being sick......just absolutely hate it!!!! since my last entry as well, things with the jealous girlfriend (my friends psycho) have been fixed and we are currently back to being friends. she took all her frustrations out on me that she has toward her parents and life in general. i felt as though i helped her out by making her realize she is an adult that needs to make her own decisions. that said, i felt like i needed company so yesterday i invited them both over for pizza dinner and it went well. fun times indeed. im going to miss everyone i went to college with. i have come to the final realization that i wont be seeing them anymore and if i do its not going to be very often. am i sad about this?!? i dont think i am, just a part of life, but i know that i have made some truly great friends over the past four years and i will never forget about them. those who are true friends, i know we will keep in touch.
so a life without another drink.....i contemplated this the other nite at the bar when i was out with my friend nina. its fun going out with her and her friends. so much different from the crowd i usually hang out with, but change is good. we went downtown and saw her aunts band. FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN!!!!!!!!!!!! i have this new appreciation for music, especially different kinds. then we came back to bport and went to the bar. this happened to be the first day of me feeling well, so i thought i prolly shouldnt drink. but i had one. i didnt get buzzed. it was just a nice drink. chilled with people. talked to this guy who was so sweet, but so not my type. it was the first time, being in a situation that everyone else was drunk that i didnt want to be. interesting enough....i thought could i do this....not drink anymore....conclusion......no way......but ive learned that being drunk isnt the only way to have fun. may this be the first of many times. i miss the river.....i miss watching sunsets while eating some yummy ice cream........i miss walk talks........i miss alot of things............. i just want..............****
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