ok so its been a while since i have written anything in here but i got inspired to write by a few people and a few things. 

first thanks to a good friend....i was thinking ALOT about this summer and the past four years at college.  graduating this past may was an event of a lifetime.  at the moment of graduation, i feel like i accomplished alot for myself and for my parents.  it didnt feel right for some reason, maybe because i just wanted to be done and had the feeling that i didnt put my all into those long long four years. 

but for the first time, i looked back at the past four years and realized that they have changed me as a person and i think its been for the better.  i have lost many freindships over the years, but they have definitely been replaced by brand new ones, hopefully ones that can continue to grow into lifelong. thank god for that.  i dont know what i would have done or what i would be doing if i didnt have the friends that i have!! 

this summer has been a time of reflection for me.  while most of my friends spent the summer finding a fulltime job out there in the real world, i spent the time enjoying life to the fullest.  it was a weird summer, but it was a nice relaxing time to just do what i want and not have any worries.

i miss the days when my friends and i didnt have a care in the world and could hang out whenever.......the river, the movies, walk-talks......all things that will never be forgotten......but i know that we will always share memories and for that i am so so HAPPY!!

happy isnt a word that i have used to describe myself in the past few years.  i have had alot of pain and loss to deal with in my life.  i have greived for many special people, which has made my life somewhat of a depressed city but with the help of family and friends i believe that i have come to know my life as happy as it can be.

i just got a job interview with a second one tomorrow and i am quite excited.  i have figured out what i wanted to do in my life and this is it.  it is back home which helps all the more.  i have finally gotten sick of people that keeping asking me, "s did u find a job yet?" .  its my time.  i have all the support in the world. 

my uncle j has been the best support for me.  he has realized that i needed the R and R the past summer and encourages me to take my time.  he looks at me as though he knows that when i find something, its going to be it and doesnt push me.  i love him for that support. 

my family (friends and relatives) has meant so much to me and i dont think i would truly be here today if it wasnt for their love and support. 

ok i feel better now.....time to go shopping!!