Hey, so I'm not having the most exciting week. It's actually the most horrible week of my life. I didn't make it to chemistry advanced, in school. My friends, have abandoned m, my parent's just had a fight because of me, and somehow all I'm diong is feeling realy crappy. Nothing's going my way. I wish I could say things and people might help, but it's just really hard to reveal myself when I've been bottled up for so long.  I'm just feeling sick and tired and like I'm a big waste of time to be even talking about myself, it's like it doesn't feel right. I have no idea if I'm making any sence. I just spent all of yesterday crying all through school. I told everyone everything was fine. They beleived it, thankfully.  Sometimes I just can't hold tears back, I'm so stupid.  My friends got into chemistry advanced and I didn't they don't even want to tell me things. They are always keeping to themselves. If I ever want to be involved I have to involve myself.  They won't talk to me, and I keep on trying.  Beside's that I know I can't complain there's people out there who've got much less than I have and much more worry.  I'm getting tired and I need to go study and get my work done.  

lullabies. <333