After a lot of thought, I've come to the conclusion that my problem is not plainly about men.  I do like men.  I'm just very specific in what I like.  Being a writer, you can create so many people in your head.  There have even been times when I like to pretend they're real.  Mostly Kamon.  In my novel, he's so perfect.   So handsome, so intelligent, so understanding...It would be impossible to meet someone who compared to him.  And Daemon...he's so creative, so talented.  I know I'm crazy.  I don't do it with female characters because they're all based off of a different aspect of me.  completely illogical, I know, but true. 

Ironically, this Asian guy I used to talk to, Alex, sent me a text last night.  loser! kid blew me off so friggen much!  And he wonders why I don't want to talk to him....he would either just not show up sometimes, or cancel right before we were supposed to go somewhere, after I was dressed and everything.  Not to mention that he's a spoiled ass rich kid.  And an alcoholic.  Not exactly my type.  See!  Totally not my fault!  I just seem to attract assholes!

Talked to Leanna a little bit last night.  She's doing good.  Didn't talk about what I should have talked about, but, she'll know soon enough.  She knows that verbalizing stuff is hard for me.  She's the only one who really gets it.

The new acting partner has been acting since 1st grade.  She knows her stuff.  She didn't show up today for practice, but I'm sure it's becasue of the time change.  Probably threw her off a little.  She's great though.  I feel like I'm learning so much from her, which makes me happy.  I love to learn!  

My dad's in england this week and bought me the british version of harry potter.  not sure why...i can't watch it, but i'll love to look at it!  I love presents!

Haven't talked to much of anyone today, outside of Sandi, who spent the night.  We had dinner at CK's and played Kingdom Hearts all night.  I was excited.  I miss spending time with her.  I'm used to being with her all the time.  This semester has been hard for me.  She's living at home now, and one of my ex-best friends is on suspension.  The ex-best friend is an ex-best friend because I found out he sexually assaulted another one of my friends...naturally, I have no desire to speak to him ever again.  Especially because I used to have a microscopic thing for him...I've lost all respect.

Anywho, I could ramble for hours, but I have homework!

Ari