So i'm hanging out with Nick tonight. yay! haha, im glad im hanging out with him again, hes so fun. but he shall be calling me after his baseball game.. shwing. haha. but i'm going to dustins tonight with him, theres going to be a whole fuck load of people there.. i dont want to get drunk though. i just dont. i'll stay sober. shwing! haha. but im tired. ive got to get ready soon... ah! tonight shall be fun.. i have to be home around 12 30ish.. so i will stay sober. haha. no more drinking.

So today was pretty good. some things/people pissed me off, but its all good, i honestly dont want to drag on it so im going to leave it alone. i cant feel my butt. haha, it went numb.. but anywho. school was school, but ever since nick said he wanted to hang out, i was in a good mood, i had something to look forward to... and people arent too terrible. im over the fact that i dont hang out with them anymore. i honestly just dont care, i shouldve realized a long time ago that they dont like me, they talk shit about me, they dont believe me when i say im sorry or that i dont want to drink, or anything. they wont listen. so why should i want to be friends with them? i'm not saying they're bad people, i'm not saying they're bad friends, but they aren't people i want to be really close friends with, as in, how we were before. but im not trying to be a bitch or sound like one or anything, but you guys are um..... kind of judgemental... but we did have fun, right? but anywho. me and brittany are going to hang out tomorrow after my game hopefully. and im glad i have brittany and van.. and amy and yeah. it makes me happy. but i still wont have a friend like jess, like, how i trusted her with everything... i could tell her anything.. but its all good... i could probably keep those things to my self. hah. or i could tell kristi. shwing! haha. i dont know. im rambling. tis fun.

but me and adam talked today, god he's adorable.

but yeah. my back hurts really bad.. i neeeeeed that reduction.. ugh. but anywho. i'm going to go and get ready, good bye homie g dawg.