Dear Diiary,
So things have been crazy lately.
About 2 weeks ago I got caught with some weed at school. That sucked. So now I go to this place called BIC. Its like jail but only for 8 hours a day. haha. I gotta go there for 30 days. Until the end of the school year. So as of now Im grounded, which has been a bad thing for my relationship.
MY MAN:: seth. we talked for about a month and have been goin out for almost 4 months. Its mostly good ((usually)). Its not like he cheats on me or anything. But damn, sometimes he really fucks up. Its always ups n downs. But the bad thing is its big ups n big downs. I love him so much. And I know he loves me but uhh. I dont even know what the fuck im feeling. Last night we got in this arguement about some dumb shit that turned into a big deal. Like always. And he muthafuckin huhng up on ME!! Now to a normal female thats not a big deal. But me? OH YES. it is. I have never had a man hang up on me. Im always the one hangin up. ((He of course called back, but still u dont hang up on me.))  But Ive been thinkin alot and in this relationship I thought I would not run game on this dude but noo he had ta push me to this. I didnt wanna do this. But I used ta be a player so u know I could write a damn book on runnin game on guys. I can do that very well. So now its tyme for mind games. Ive gotta get him beggin ta talk ta me all the tyme like he used ta do. Sayin he missed me but we talked like 15 minutes ago. Thats how he used to be. But hell be back to that soon. Trust me on this.
Other than my love lyfe things are still kinda fucked up.
HOME LYFE:: the parents are assholes. they pay attention to my sister and brother and not me. There all nice and buy them shit n all that. But not ta me. I have to live on my own pretty much. Although I have no problem with that. Im real good at that. I dont need anyone. And its funny cuz I grow my sister n brother up ((even though my brother is older than me. funny huh?)) n they try ta talk down on me n make fun of me. Fuck them. I dont need anybody. On the real. So thats what that is.
Well Im bout ta go. Write tamorrow.