Dear me and whoever else is listening,

 The meeting with unemployment went pretty well the lady advised me that my former job the phone company wouldn't have to pay me a dime because my previous job that fired me would. She went on about how it works and etc and I just feel like I will most likely get approved it helps also to know that I don't need to jump through any hoops of fire to convince anyone my previous job did me wrong. The mediator for unemployment explained I wasn't even at my last job long enough for them to decide I wasn't a good worker. I was only there for what a little shy of three months! Which is some companies is the training period. So...I feel slightly hopeful about that.

  I am a bit nervous about the interviews I have lined up for this week. I don't know if I am "ready" to interview tomorrow and this job tomorrow I really want especially since it's in Indiana. I hated commuting on the toll road and etc through illinois to get to work it was a nightmare. I also feel like this job would be really exciting for me especially since it's in sales which I have experience in then the whole management part which I want so badly. Oh...and not to mention their office hours are 8-4:30 monday through friday which is totally sweet. I could be home by five everyday!

The job interview that I have on thursday I am almost certain I won't get especially since I have no idea how to construct a budget let along one for a fortune 50 company. Part of me doesn't even want to travel all the way past downtown Chicago  to go to this stupid interview. I can't even believe the people called me in the first place! I mean a job answering to the vice president directly...darn...I am so nervous! I just want a good job. No let me be specific.

I want a job with the following:

Great benefits, All weekends and holiday's off, pay 55 to 120grand a year, a few boss's maybe one or two that I rarely see, a team of people reporting to me maybe 30 to 50.

Management/Trainer/or instructor....I don't want a sales representative job. I do NOT want to be a customer service representative. I feel like I should at least get a job that pays 50 a year. I owe more than that in student loans and back taxes!

Besides, if my resume says I was a coporate trainer, or manager I should get those type of positions and interviews at least. 

The dictator:

kneizer and I are having it out about his wanting me to do yard work all day while he's at work.  He keeps insisting that I should be outside working like he's the boss and I'm the worker. Almost everything that comes out of his mouth these days are instructions on how I can do something better, or in a different way. I text messaged him a little while ago and told him that he isn't sensitive to my situation and maybe I should go visit a friend or something for a few days.

 I wish he could leave the house for a few days and let me be here alone so, I can prepare for my interviews. His insisting I should be doing yard work is annoying! It is times like these I wish we never got married and I still lived on my own...but, of course I couldn't afford to live on my own so that's dumber than it sounds.

 Anyway,...more than anything I wish I could be alone right now.  At first, he was a motivating factor in my looking for a better paying job. I wanted the both of us to be able to afford all the things that I could afford for us when I worked at the phone company. But...now...he's stressing me out and suggesting I put everything in front of my job search and I don't understand that.

 Sincerely,
me