Allright, so I rearranged the lyrical ideas behind all the instrumentals I have going on in progress right now. I never really made any definite decision about what they're about, but I took the time to just focus and guide myself to the inspiration behind this sound... to determine what I was feeling. For two of the three instrumentals... I'm still hazy on what exactly they will be about (though I did find the underlying emotions). For one of them, though... for easily the greatest one, the most complex, the most experimental, the most well-composed instrumental out of the three I will be naming, "Memory Lapse." It's slightly darker, and more intense than the other two, not to mention most of what I've composed thus far. Though, unlike, say, Afterlife, this dark ambience is maintained throughout, still varying, however, in the progressive intensity of the piece. It's very exciting for me to work on, it has some strong melodies, strong harmonies and roots. And the rhythms, very nice as well. It's just over four minutes, so it's not quite as ever-lasting as my last few, but still as adventurous in its structure, making for an unrepetitive progression. There's this part just after the second half that.. man, it'll be nice to hear when finished.
Anyways, I decided to begin thinking about what exactly was going on in my heart.. my soul... as I was composing this piece. I do intend to write lyrics for this. Granted, I haven't incorporated vocals in the past 5 instrumentals I've done, but the music means something to me and the lyrics are a wonderful way to express that, for myself, if anything. Besides, god knows if I'll ever find a way of actually putting them in there. Eventually, I determined that the specific idea I was going for from the sound I created and the emotions within me as I composed this song was the way in which people move on from things, and forget. Important things. The way people will walk on from something and never look back no matter how large the shadow. The complete ignorance for the magnitude of something one will push behind them, never to be realized again. It goes beyond even ignorance. Rather, it's the dismissal and denial of something vast and meaningful even after one has already realized its value... realized partially at the very least. Everyone does it, to some extent. I try to purge my life of such irresponsibility, but many live their life by this method, by the mantra of "ignornace is bliss." Honestly, it disgusts me. So how do I express this, in a society where I'm surrounded by it? I used the same method of lyrical composition as Emptiness, Fantasy, and Lonliness. I wanted use something interesting, almost metaphorical, to express this in an almost fictional fasion. I came up with this idea... imagine, if you a will, in the future, an almost house-hold item used by almost everyone, everyday... a device that electronically erases memory. Everyone has a difficult point in their life that, at the time, you wish would just go away. These are usually very emotional points in our life, generally regarding loss. I realize now that,so far, this may remind you of something along the lines of Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, but I want to go beyond that. Like I said, I want to imagine this as a household device, and as such, sure, first it would start out as a healing of loss for the few select people who use it, but imagine, if people were to do this, why not use it for other negative aspects of life, until we make ourselves completely ignorant of everything we don't wish to concern ourselves with. It would spread like a drug... spreading not only as it becomes more available, but also as people explore all its uses, and as people become all the more dependent on it for sanity. We don't need a memory-eraser to be ignorant... just as we don't need tobacco or alcohol to relax, the telephone or the internet to communicate, but if this device were to exist, the more and more it becomes available, the masses of our world would not help but submit to empty themselves of all the bothersome details people feel they are burdened with, like an obstacle in their own egocentric path of indulgence. The device I envision, is not a medical procedure like that of Spotless Mind, but an iconic technology to be bestowed on the masses and used for their every whim. Furthermore, just for the sake of dramatic exaggeration, what the hell, I'll say that the device wipes out all memory. I'm sure most people would find the end result well worth the price. Plus, that moves past some of the scientific theories that limit what we saw in Spotless mind from reaching everyone within their own home at their own personal use. Anyways, it's just an idea, and that of something very meaningful to me. It'll be interesting to see how I incorporate this idea into lyrics, considering there isn't a whole lot of room for lyrics in the song (atleast I didn't plan on there to be). It's a shame these lyrics will never see the light of day in the form of audio, I've grown attatched to this idea. I hope you like it as well.