hellokitty133 - So far from perfect

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Age: 24
Sex: F
Location: the middle of a well
State: Ohio

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I know he loves me : >>

So far from perfect Thursday, May 25, 2006

I love my boy with all my heart and more.We havent been togather for what some people call a long time, but we've been bestfriends for 2 to 3 years.1 out of 10 days he makes me feel like I am on top the world others he makes me feel like shit. He tells me that I always do things to hurt his feelings on a daily basis. He tells me my friends are bad infulences when I have a mind of my own. He gets mad at me if I go out for a long period of time. Or if I switch plans, But things happen. He point out things he hates about me and tells me. He finds things to fight about when we're having a good day. He tells me that I lie.when realy heknows everything i do .. and he knows all my secrets.

Some of my friends tell me that I need to look at the situation and think about how we got togather..We got togather bc he use to date my ex best friend for 2 years and she was a whore let me tell you.. So every time he had a problem or she hurt him he came to me crying bc she didnt feel like talking. I was in a three year relationship where the guy just up and left me. He was my first love and ment the world to me. And Brett Knew that. So he was there to pick me up when i needed someone the most.So I tryed to be strong and do the same for him so we just got togather.

Things are great at times. I just feel so low about my self. Like i am not pretty enough or not good enough.So i increased my eating habbits I am on diet pills I cant go a day with out now. I exersize more than i ever have. I am always dying my hair and getting new hair cuts. Hoping that it will help.. I ve changed the way i dress and everything. I dont understand. His last girl friend wasnt the best looking either..When they whent out she never did her hair or anything. I just dont know what it is with him.

Hes very cautious who I hang out with . all my friends use to be guys and not any more.. Now.. I have like no friends. bc i dont have time for them or nothing. I realy want this to work but i dont know what is going on.. or what is wrong. my feelings are hurt and now i am confused..

ANY ONE HAVE ANY ADVICE

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If you aren't happy in a relationship, you shouldn't be in it. Especially when you're younger, there are so many more things to be worried about. Your boyfriend should make you feel beautiful and wanted. If he's not he doesn't deserve you. It might seem like it's better to be with him, especially since you recently broke up, but you need to be strong and think about what's best for you. Good luck [Espiritu Pesado]

5/25/2006 4:26:00 AM

thank you for the note. i agree that no one should have to feel the way i'm feeling now... i see that you have some relationship problems of your own, and i am sorry to hear that-- because they really are one of the worst things to deal with. i hope that things get better for you. i cant even get the one i love to speak to me, so i have no good advice :(

have a good night too,

[suicide.blonde]

5/25/2006 4:58:27 AM

if you have to consttantly change yourself to make him happy...if your limited with your selection of friends bc he doesn't "trust" you, then maybe you should think about why your still in this relationship if your not happy at times? we do alot of crazy things for love, but ask yourself if he loves you back as much as you love him. i hope all goes well for you! thanks for the note [whispered promises]

5/25/2006 8:00:11 PM

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