i might be moving out here in a few months YAY I know i have just got home from counsling itwent pretty good i guess i got home and i think my mom and dad are mad at me I dont think they are proud of who i am i really do want to move out i hate it herel. butif i do move out i wont have the money to pay for counsling and i would have to stop and i couldent get hurt because that just means that i wont have the money because i wont have the insurents to pay for it. Life is just so out of it now. I am having some thoughts of suicide right now but they might pass who knows. I kinda wanna cut right now but im trying notto. I told my counlser since im not cutting and eating again that i have started to smoke again. BUT OMG today the powerwnet out at school and was out for a long time so they let us gohome and as soon as they let us do this and we were leaving the power came back on and we all ran the hell out of there so they wouldnt make us go back to class it was cool. My parents are being mean to me right now i feel if i tell them i did some thing good that they dont care they are all yea thats cool in like a what ever kinda mood you know crazy i know i hate it. because if i do something noboudy will tell me hoe cool it was or if i was doing a good job at it  really hurts. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I just want to screm out and make it all go away i should go night

 Rock on, LIVE HARD

Ashley