Ok so lately, things are just spiralling out of control.
THE AL FACTOR..
Damnit!!! I love this man so much but he is all over Nairobi galavanting his heart to other women and getting his heart broken to a million pieces by these women...I still cannot see why he cannot see me. All he sees lately is someone by the name of Val..She left him on the grounds that she was seeing some-one else and, she even gave him back the ring he gave her. So he still misses her. Every conversation that we have with Al seems to find its way to Val somehow.....................Damn Her!!!!!! So anyway, one day last month i was so drunk and i told Al on the phone how much i loved him and how i would never hurt him like these other women that he goes out with and stuff...That teaches me a lesson....Thou shalt not call up people when you are drunk because you might wanna take the words back......OMG i don't even think that i can face him right now....Like really..
THE BASSIST FACTOR
so a few days before the world cup final, i called Jon the bassist and as usual he didnt pick up. So he texted the day before the final and he goes like "i was just saying hi". So in the process it turned out to be a conversation that included an invitation to have a drink with him since i am single and i am not dating Al (they play in the same band).....So on the day of the final, we are chatting via text and he asks me to go over to Black diamond, like at 10pm and i really couldnt go cz we live in the bundus and its like a 1kilometer walk to the main road and its kinda dangerous at night..so i told him that and he said he would keep in touch....Honestly, who in their right mind would play such mean games with me?? He hasnt kept in touch and it has been like a month now and i cannot be the first to blink. However, i am constantly thinking of him and i do not know why.......
THE A FACTOR
afetr this IDIOT kissed me before we moved, would you believe that he hasnt called, texted or wanted to keep in touch. I Kick myself in the ass everytime i think about him because, i keep thinking of how he hurt me and what a jerk he really is like really......I did text him the other day and as usual, he replied the first txt and didnt reply the second one, so i'm guessing that its really over between us...I can't believe i used to love him and maybe i still do
THE CAP FACTOR
this is a guy who works at school and i used to have a crush on him...I think i still do somewhat but i said hi to him the other day and, now i'm avoiding him for no apparent reason. well there is a reason, i should never have said hi. I probably scared him off........I really hope he sees me today and says he wants to go for coffee or something. I'd so love that..

I still do not get how i can have all these emotions for diferrent men at the same time.....