So yeah, I haven't written in quite some time again.  I figured once school was over that I would have more time... and I would if I didn't have a thousand things to catch up on and deal with.

The longer I live, the more information I recieve, knowledge I possess and the sad part is I understand less and less on a daily basis.  People befuddle me, half the time I don't even understand myself.  More like most of the time.  I wonder where I'm going and why and what the hell is wrong with me sometimes.  

Sometimes I wonder what happiness is.  Is happiness sacrificing yourself, your wants, dreams, desires, goals.. your life for another so that they can be happy happiness?  Is complacent contentment the most one can strive for?  Is there more?  Should one be willing to do all of the work, be mother, brother, friend, sister, father, lover to one person while they themselves offer nothing? 

Random musings and thoughts today, perhaps not really so random but this is what is going on inside of my scattered brain.  I thought this would be longer, I'm thoughtful but I cannot find the words to express the pictures in my mind.