last night i dreamed that all the ex girlfriends of all the guys i ever liked or loved shaved their heads or got stupid haircuts and the only one left the same was me and they all came running back to me and begged me to take them back and i laughed in their face. you had the choice and you picked the brunette, the one your mother liked best, the one you could hide away, the one who'd put out, the one with no ambition, the one that holds you back. etc. etc. etc. all these different times they picked the one that was the easy thing to do and turned away from what i had to give. so i dreamed they all became as shallow as their men and after that, i didn't look so bad. why oh why is it so that they could be with them for years and only me for a week before they go back to them? why can a guy remain friends with an ex whereas all mine get as far away from me as possible when it was them who did wrong? is it because they want someone to sleep with later? is it because they'll have someone to get back with when the other girl doesn't work out? i like to believe that there are decent men who care about the heart of a woman even when he's found another, but this can't be the case. i'm sure its all about convienence. one might prove me wrong. i really hope so.