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Nothing has really changed honestly. I'm still hopelessly in love with a girl who doesn't feel the same way. I find myself thinking of elaborate schemes to try to find out how she feels about me, or convince her that the likes me, or just to set myself up in a position to tell her i like her. But honestly its all taking a toll on me. Im more depressed than i usually am, not as focused. She does care about me as a friend at least, and maybe she used to have a thing for me, but that time has passed. And i realize that as long as she is with her boyfriend i cant win her over. Thank you all for helping me though. But yeah, nothing much new. Except my family is all dissapointed that im not going back to school this semester, those that arent are the ones that dont know. My grandfather gave me back my painting i made for him and the newspaper article i wrote about him. My dad wants me to start paying rent, i hardly see my mom and when we do i fight. And when i think about all this, i dont feel sad. I feel nothingness. Maybe im depressed, maybe im just looking for an excuse. My friendships are all dissapating, I found out the poetry contest i entered in is just a scam. I just hope things start getting better.
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man, i can relate. iv had a 3 year run of shitty luck. and you know.. things may not ever get better... but i dont think that its wether it gets better or not that matters.. but how we chose to live with it. and how we chose to let it affect us.
hang in there kid. its not the end just yet. give it a fight on the way down. [skittle836]
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1/16/2008 9:56:34 AM
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Awww im sure that things will get better, and the girl well she is not worth ur time. [XxX Blondie XxX]
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1/22/2008 9:02:31 AM
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ohhh things will get better! =]
i know how u feel but just hang in there!
my mums the same...i cant stand her.
gl
xox [love_life93]
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3/28/2008 5:41:25 AM
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