why does one cry?
for no reason than she has dissapointed
someone she counted as a friend
i don't know what is wrong
how i wish i did
sometimes this happens
i fall
and i don't know why
i wish i could climb to my feet
on my own
but i can't
i never could
i've always depended on someone else
whether it was someone i made up
or someone real
a figment of my imagination
or someone who held me
i was always held up by someone
who i thought
loved me
maybe they did
maybe then didn't
i never really loved myself
so i suppose they never really loved me either
i don't even know who i am anymore
am i what i think i am?
or am i something else?
i never meant to hurt anyone
i never do
but i always fail
when i try to help
it always backfires
i tell myself i should stop
but i know i won't
its what i do
i can't stop
i never could
so alone...
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blessed be
