i got a letter today
from an old...
"friend"
i opened it
not knowing who it was from
but the moment i read the first words
i knew
i should have thrown it away right then
why did i read it?
i suppose i couldn't tell you
perhaps i like the pain it causes...
but i will tell you why i am writing this
it is not because i am stupid and think this place is safe
i know it's not
the only place my thoughts are safe is when they are hiding
i am not writing this to annouce to the world my fears
i am here to say this:
I AM NOT AFRAID
you can't scare me anymore
i can even say your name out loud without shuddering
you are done
this is over
i am through with you
and now you are through with me
you can't touch me here
not where i am
and you laugh to yourself
because i am a silly child who clearly doesn't understand
you know where i am
because you sent me that letter
but now it is my turn to laugh
because i'm not talking about Ripon
you can come and get me here
feel free
YOU CAN'T TOUCH ME
i am safe now
you can't even begin to imagine what will happen should you find me
you don't know the kind of pain you will suffer
because you don't believe that i would actually stand up to you
but you forget
it's been nine years since you saw me
and almost four years since you killed her
and nearly six months since you tormented me last
and i have grown
and i have changed
and i have made friends
AND YOU CAN'T TOUCH ME
so go ahead
come and get me
try to break me
try to hurt me
try to do to me what you did to loren
i am not strong
but i am not alone
AND YOU CAN'T TOUCH ME
~*~*~*~*~
blessed be
