i love when i'm around you and you can hold me tight
there's something about the look in your eyes that just feels so right
my knees go weak with your hands on my waist
my palms get sweaty and my heart starts to race
you draw me closer and look into my eyes
i want to be with you forever, no more lies
you move closer still, your lips almost to mine
in your arms, no one hurts me and i feel just fine
our lips finally touch, there's a smile in my heart
promise me not to let go, 'til death do us part

i look at you but you turn away
so many thoughts that i could say
i look to find you're no longer there
there's no longer dreams that i can share
i pick up the gun and turn it over in my hand
i've fallen to my knees, can no longer stand
i gave you signs, like the cuts on my wrist
but you didn't care, you were just pissed
the gun was to my head with tears on my face
everything i am is such a disgrace
but everything you want is nohing i can be
i wish you would have taken the time to see
that the sun wasn't there and my world was upside down
but no one seemed to notice in this fucked up town
so i'm saying goodbye in a simple way
the gun's to my head and i've nothing to say
nothing left to think and nothing left to feel
nothing left in my life that's completely real
i'm tired of being someone i'm not
my life is twisted into one big knot
i carve away, on the bullet, your name
hoping you will have some shame
what is it like to know what you've done
i don't know what else you want, you've won
i really hope you don't end up like this too
the last thing on my mind was the bullet of you

what have i done to deserve all of this?
they live to watch me fall
i dodge their stares and hateful words
they think they know it all
i walk alone down halls full of them
their weak lies they chatter
i wish that they could just look and see
that i only want to matter

i'm not ashamed of who i am
what i do or what i see
it's my life, so deal with it
'cause this is me

girl
young, naieve
hugging, kissing, smiling
change, pain, lies, guilt
crying, growing, learning
wiser, unhappy
heartbreak

the girl
brave yet afraid
thinks and cries
hesitantly
trust?

my feelings i hide deep inside
you don't understand how hard i tried
but now it's too late
my happiness and love has turned to hate
you can't stop me, so don't even try
and to think this all started from one simple lie
i point the gun to my head
you can try to stop me but i'm already dead

(this was for my mommy, duhh)
i thought to get you a special gift
one with lots of color and fun
the colors, how bright they would be
as bright or even brighter than the sun
and then i thought a teddy bear
would bring you lots of joy
but when i went to buy you one
i found it just a toy
i sat and thought of what to do
for mother's day was coming fast
and then a smile appeared on my face
because i had an idea at last
you can't give love in just a gift
no matter what the size
the only way for me to send love
is looking in my eyes
everyone will be giving gifts
be that what it may
but i'll just thank you for your love
and wish you a happy mother's day