|Never Sleeping Mind|
So last night and the night before where weird. my nights were perty much ruined because of a massive migrane that i got at around 11:30-12:00ish but this whole area has had a dry spell of green, but not of white like cola white. and this dude Jesse who i met at my old party house of grant and dylan's (that was my time of being a complete and total alcoholic) and he grew up in the same small town as them. and i reunited with him at a bon fire and he was all over me and we hung out the whole day the next day and we perty much drove around he came over to bryan's with me and all the other boys looked at me funny for having another guy over there and he said he got high off of a hit of a pipe and a hit of a j and he wanted me to drive his really nice car and idk the whole situation was akward. and we basically made out at dylan and bronco's apartment and he perty much told me that he wanted to bang me but i had my period and i'm so not into doing anything when my aunt is visiting and he told me that he was leaving the next day so i perty much just teased him and i've never done that before but i thought that he was just using me for a piece of ass so i had my reasons kinda. but anyways then i saw him a couple times more once when me and kaley came over to dylan and bronco's and we were drunk and i was totally making fun of the girl that he was with with kaley and dylan it was fun and the other times he always tried hitting on me when he had a whole bunch of hickies on his neck which to me isn't cool and him and dylan spent the night at kaley's apartment with me and dylan wanted to get on kaley and kaley didn't want to and kaley and dylan wanted me to get with him and i said no and they tried so hard and he even did in the morning when he was all hung over and he tried laying next to me and using the same pillow with me when we were all watching the OC(which i love that show it's like the life i never could have). and that didn't work there was two pillows and i gave him one and he got mad but i didn't care.
Anyways david and shortman found out somehow that he got a whole shit load of cola and he came over to bryan's with them on sat around 4 and i was over there just visiting. and they all snorted lines and i have a problem with things going up my nose so david put some in the end of two of my cigarettes and i smoked them and i did a gummi and Jesse finally got a little bit of green and we had a premi-bowl and that was good and i got fucked up and it was fun. I just lost a lot of cigarettes after that cuz nobody had any.
Well i need to go and get trav in 15min and i have to go pee
i'm going to have a conversation with him maybe cuz i need to about my girl drama and see if he's going to tell me the truth and see how much i really mean to him
good night febreeze