Well today is the 3rd of August(i think) and I am actually really bummed out. Yesterday Shane and I got in a fight. Is it so wrong of me to be tired of sitting around every time i go over his house? I dont think so. So i told him how i felt. We ended up going on a walk and then we ended up at my cousins house.

Not very far from his house maybe about a mile or two but none the less it was a pretty good walk. we talked and figured everytime we get angry with one another we are going for a walk.

He also got his Nexium today. Shane has way bad acid reflux, he has had it ever since he was born.  It is hard to see him in pain so i am really glad that he got his pills for the first time in his life today.

I cant help but wonder what the chances are for our kids though.

We plan on having two kids, but we dont know what the chances are of them having acid reflux.  I hope it is slim because i would feel terrible, but i know shane would feel worse.

I cant stop thinking about josh...

he isnt my bf but he is a really great guy.

It isnt wrong to think about other guys i just cant do things with other guys.

and i know that unlike most girls in america.

i love Shane, and i love josh in a completly different way.

I think it is because josh is everything shane isnt.

shane is this sweet, funny very strong and competetive person, but with a semi low self image/esteem.

josh is this mean, cocky, agressive, thinks hes everything, but he is also very picky so i think its kick ass that he is friends with me.

see, thats it. josh is just a friend that i do have other feelings for, but he is just a friend to me. shane is a best friend whom i love more than anything.

See, its all sorted out now lol!

you just have to write it all down, sort it all out, then BAM! its all cool now.