Well, I am back!! Today is the first day of classes. I've already had 2 (they're not real classes though, only 30 minutes long, enough time for our professors to read through the syllabus and that's pretty much it) and have 2 to go. I'm already moved and settled into my new apartment, where I have my own room, but have 2 suitemates. Our rooms are right next to each other and I'm pretty sure they are able to hear me purge. I haven't set up my TV yet, which I plan to use as a background coverup, so until then I'm probably audible. Eek! My 2 suitemates already know I have an ED, so it's not like it would shock them.
I've already planned a b/p for after my next class (my stomach is making growling noises as I write this). I went food shopping with my boyfriend yesterday and we got a TON of stuff. I am so excited!! There is so much good food here! I've already set up my "purge corner"- garbage can on top of water and Snapple bottles, next to my dresser which holds a roll of paper towels and baggies (my purge instrument).
I'm excited to be back at school and interested in my courses this year (science major, btw). On the other hand though, I don't really care so much about seeing other people even though I haven't seen most of them in a few months. Sometimes I really just feel like being alone or with my boyfriend, away from everyone else. I've had some mild anxiety already just about being with others. My bulimia has helped me really isolate myself from others...not a good thing. I know I have to just push past it and try to be social so I won't lose all my friends.
Well, I've got a few other things to do before class, so I should go now! Later!