So last night, I had the most insane high of my life.
I am pretty sure I was in another world.
everything was spinning, and as I described the feeling to sean:
It was like I was 6 years old and I was dreaming everything that was happening.

I threw up 3 times.
I don't know what happened to me.

I was so afraid that I was never going to wake up.
I felt like I was going to be in another world forever.

I looked at Sean, and I could hear him talking.
but it didn't look like him.

I cried.
and I laughed.
but it was like I was outside of my body
hearing everything.

I don't know if I am explaining this the right way. but I had to write it all down.

I kept trying to concentrate on one thing.  I tried to remind myself  that I was still
alive and still in the present. but it was so hard.

So sean tried to talk to me, and as i concentrated on what he was saying. i threw up.
then i tried to focus on the movie, and i threw up again.

then i said to sean "you must really love me"
and then i fell asleep.

I woke up, feeling fine.
and now I am trying to make sense of what happened.
it doesn't feel like it was real.
but I know it was, cuz Sean was there, and he is still here.
and he remembers what happened.

I dont' ever want to feel like that again!