yesterday was different. it was mine and adam's nine month anniversary. i love that boy so much, i want to marry him. but i won't get my hopes up. Anyways tony and katie were at my house then tony had to babysit and katie, adam, and i all hung out for a while. katie went home around 7. me and adam were hanging around just talking and we talked about justin and dani. i asked him if he missed them (we haven't really talked to them in a few months) he said yes. i told him i did to. he said well lets try to call them. so we tried justin and called him, but he was at work. then we called dani's cell phone, but i got some mean chick (wrong number, twice) then we called her house. i talked to her for a minute, then we asked her if she wanted to come over to talk all our shit out. so she came over and me and adam gave her a hug. for some reason it was great to have her there. to see her big tank of a poop colored celebrity pull up and see the broken part of the door were me and dani hit the fence. it was like everything felt better. then we didn't really talk and it felt kind of akward, we talked about stupid stuff. we got a hold of justin and dani talked to him mostly. we said we should try to go to breakfast, but for once tony was out of his house early and i missed justins call for lunch. i feel bad. i haven't called either of them back. i might try to email them or something. i hope everything will work out. between me and dani and justin. between adam and dani and justin. bascially between all of us. when we were all friends. i miss those two goons more than i thought i did. well i realized how much i missed them, especially lately, but it just felt so good when i saw dani pulling up. dani had to go and i walked her out. i think she was kind of weirded out. but hey a phone call is a start. i just want the 6 of us to all be friends. i know dani and justin aren't to fond of katie and i feel bad about that, but there's not much i can do. i can only hope that we can all be friends. even if it takes a while for us to all hang out, just an occasional breakfast of call would just be great. it's hard to explain how much i want everything to be back to the old way.

i want the 6 of us to be together. we all will be happy. we'll all have out signifigant other, no one will feel left out without a bf/gf. and we'll be a big happy partridge family again. perhaps the goon squad will reunite. imagine the trouble we'll get into then.

well after dani left, becuase it was like 10:50 when she left and she had to be home at 11 adam borrowed my roller blades and rollerbladed home. he says it wasn't that hard, but i worried about him until he called me.

i think everything will work out, and i think this is the beginning. i know it will probably be a slow start, but give it time and i think it will all work out.

one can only hope---

gwenn

now if i could only find my phone/quote/poem book i could try to call dani and apologize for not returning there call.