ok, this is my new diary. my last entry just got fuckin deleted, so i'm off on a start.

for those who might recognize my writing technique (or obsessive-writer-who needs-to-fill-in-all-the-juice syndrome), i had a previous diary, A F1R3 1NS1D3. Right now it's not very active, but hey, maybe sometimes i'll post a lil sumthin in there too.

just to give a run-thru, i'm currently expelled from school for bringing a concealed weapon. my friend got in trouble for the same thing (plus she had/was under the influence of weed), and nothing happened. they'll probably send me back into treatment, but i'm expecting the worst. I've trained myself to do that - otherwise i'd be in pieces by now.

i'm very much into Marie Antoinette these days (and no it's not cuz of the damn move, thought i want to see it cuz it's about her), have been for a few months. I came across her name when i was reading about vinegar, so i decided to check her out. i could go on and on about how much i like her and etc. Basically, she lived it up, and i like her alot for what she did accomplish.
With that, I'm also into the Capetian/Victorian eras, which i've adored for 2 years now. I'm just learning the history, and it's not as boring as i thought it would be...? hmmm.

I'm now reading the book The Hidden Diary of Marie Antoinette that i got yesterday. It's like a rich cake - you want to consume it slowly because you don't want the taste to end too soon. I'm planning on devoting at least 30mins to this diary everyday, since i have the time. I'm being homeschooled right now, and i'm going to court on Friday.
What a life i lead.

As for Devon and Dale: Things got sour between me and Devon, and i literally just broke down. The last time we looked directly at each other, he could've easily melted my face off. Dale and i still keep in touch to this day. They've both severed ties to their girlfriends, and Devon's been asking about me. I dunno; to be honest, i'm scared shitless of this whole love thing. I know that if he hurts me i'll still love him, yet i'll be compelled to hurt his just as worse. it sickens me to think i'd have to hurt someone i love. things are just so weird right now - it's definitely not the perfect time.

i'm feeling a bit tired at the moment. I just might do an oatmeal treatment and retreat to sleep.

~ Poupée de chiffon

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